❤ LOVE/ hate

So much thinking. been thinking to take on a part time while studying part time at UNI-SIM. lost the motivation at work at times. unable to make decision, felt that we are just puppets. and working under no time lines which as much as i wanted to set but i cant. i cant complete my job on time cos pple cant complete on time too. so much "late work" and with such a short notice which will results in poor participation i guessed.

Felt and wanted to enjoy my life as a 21 years old girl where i can just concentrate on degree studies and nothing else. but i cant cos i am not born with a silver or gold spoon. i need to work to earn money to pay for my degree programme. i really really really want to enjoy life. work means just purely working, study means just purely studying, no two at a time. from next week onwards, i will be studying at night for tues and thurs. was quite surprise that the lessons were held at SP and which it will be much accessible for me too! I think there must be a overwelming of students due to the 40% government sponsorship.

lost the motivation at work currently. been working there for almost 1 and half years w/o knowing. i need a change soon i guessed. i need to learn more things. everything seemed so unsmooth for me now. love work study just sucked. can i just relax one corner? hais